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when will things just turn out...right? perfect? no mistakes. so many problems to face.so many complications.  just want things to be fine. is that asking for way too much?

a friend leaves the school. the perfect friend. took her for granted at times. and that's when things go crazy. i miss her so much. how am i ever going to say everything i wanted to tell her? thank her for everything? i want things to go back to normal.. just the two of us in school. vanity,boys,food,laughtrip. no more. it hurts me so much. just writing all this down makes me cry.

bestfriend. we don't spend that much time nowadays. we don't see each other that much, we don't talk on the phone that often. and even if i just talked to her earlier, i still miss her. i can't live without her. i saw her last week..we were together..but that's too long for me.

my cousin. because of her boyfriend, who is a jerk, i didn't get the chance to talk or hangout with her. it's been like that  for a long time now. how i hate her stupid boyfriend. i'm sorry for saying this.

the boy. he's the one. i've been dreaming about him since..forever! but the thing is, he has a girlfriend. well i don't hate the girl, though. but i can't deny the fact that i felt sad. for such a long time i wanted to be his girl. even a friend would do. but how? it's like you have so much connections and you don't make use of it...now it's too late.

the other boy. he's really nice. admitted he likes me. always been there for me since the day we met. but the thing is, i never really appreciated his presence in my life. i took for granted all those times when he'd stick around to check if i'm ok. he always makes me smile because of those stupid jokes. most of the time, i was kind of rude. i always pushed him aside. never took notice. i don't like him (well, romantically) but now i suddenly realized that i should really be thankful because i have such a good friend like him. i can never say these words to him personally. maybe because of my pride. or maybe because i find it as a challenge whenever i have to be nice to him. and i don't like doing challenges of that kind. he's one of the nice little blessings that one takes for granted.and i hate myself for doing that.

the family. well we're all happy. except for this one thing. i can't really tell here. but i assure you, no one's running away and my parents won't be separated. i've been praying for this thing to pass away. to get better. i've been praying for it for years. God hasn't granted my wish yet. i don't blame Him for anything. i know that He has reasons. i'm still waiting. somehow, God will answer me.

things aren't going as smoothly as i expected them to be. i sometimes wonder. i hope i can be just like paris hilton. perfect life? maybe.but i'm happy that things are this way. i just realized that all of this is just a challenge. a phase. i'll get over this.

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what a day! finally,,,nagkakaroon narin ng meaning ang word na summer para sa akin! around 11am nagpunta ko kila minot for her so-called "grad party"...super saya! hahaha...jamming talaga...hahaha....we were with maro pa and all the other kids..haha...and finally..i found my sport! table tennis! wow astig...hahaha..as in i totally love playing that sport...hahahaha...dapat magiging 2 sets ung laro namin ni jaye kaso lang si minot! she wanted me to play billiards (which is ok lang sana...kaso the truth is, i really don't know how to play that eh...super di ko talaga alam eh!) so, i played nga,,, kaso talagang i made a fool out of myself...kaya di ko na tinuloy.... kasi naman eh...pero ok lang..para sa besty ko naglaro ako ng billiards kahit na my heart was aching for more of table tennis (mga 10 sets pa sana...joke lang..imposible ata un eh!) hahaha...we went to the Church patio we played badminton (isa pang sport na ang hirap laruin...)pero sandali lang...nga pala...the day was ok na sana pero dumating si paolo na di nagets ang simpleng instruction na SA BILYARAN SIYA PUMUNTA....instead, he went straight to minot's house which was SO NOT COOL dahil ung dad niya  nandun...so napasubo ako kasi i was supposed to give the cds to him....tapos ito pa ung super kaasar....nung lumabas ako ng house to give him the cds, SINABAYAN NIYA NG TALIKOD AND PAGLAKAD! and i said tuloy: "hoy! bakit di ka kaya humarap.." and stuff like that..hehehe..kainis naman tlga noh? what was he thinking? susundan ko sya? never gonna happen!nako,,,if ever na binabasa ni paolo toh....eto sasabihin ko sayo: una,,, you always make me mad..kainis to! 2nd: di ako yung tumatawag sa bahay mo tapos nagha-hang up! why the hell will i call you then hang up? sayang lang energy ko nun....

enough na about that person! so un,,, umalis ako kila minot at around 530 pm..then i went to my sister's house....ayun,we played bingo..may perahan pa kaya mas nakakatawa...i won..one time lang..tapos naubos din ung napanalunan ko kasi naman syempre nagtaya ulit ako..tapos para kaming timang ni ate..we called our brother sa states para lang magpauwi ng flip flops! grabe..hahaha..kasi... it's better to buy havaianas sa states kasi dito it costs Php800 tapos sa states $1 lang un (*wink)...hahhaa.astig..hahaha...kaso para pa rin kaming timang ng ate ko para tumawag lang para sa flip flops na un..i bet naistorbo lang namin si kuya dun...hahaha tapos ayun..akala ko uuwi na tlaga ko kasi i wanted to go home na..baka magalit na ung parents namin..tapos she was like: "tara punta tau sa bahay nila" (she wanted to go to our tita's house) ehdi sumama namam ako...ano ba yun...mejo matagal din kami dun...she was asking for pasalubong sa tita namin...haynako..ate ko tlaga..sometimes she thinks just like a teenager...that's why i love her so much! thanks nga pala sa slippers na bigay mo! thank you tlga...parehas na tayo! hahaha...mwah...cge la na ko masabi..bbye!